Hipbones and Microphones

I woke up and weighed a disgusting 67.2 kg - I have gained a full 3 kg from my lowest weight. How did I let this happen in the first place?

I told myself, “Don’t worry. It’s the first day of a new month and exactly a month until your 21st birthday.” I told myself that for the entire month of May I would not binge or eat badly.

An hour later I went to the mall with my mom and sister and got McDonalds. I ate a grilled chicken foldover, medium fries and a medium coke.

What’s wrong with me that I can’t even eat healthily on DAY ONE of my new diet, let alone for the rest of the month?

I don’t know how, but one way or another I have to lose a good few kg this month. And it will mean sacrifice and going without delicious food and it will mean exercising as much as I can.

I have to do this. I am not a failure. I cannot fail.

In Summer, it’s too hot and I can’t handle working out intensely in that heat.

In Winter, it’s freezing and my bones are aching and I can’t work out either.

If I want it badly enough, I’m going to have to do it anyway. Help meeeeeeeee.

I admit, sadly, that I did it over 39 days because I took breaks in between and I got sick for a bit towards the end, but hey, I finished :D